Are you awake at this moment? Can you deny you exist at this moment? Can you say "I am not here" at this moment? Have you ever wondered as to why you can say so with certainty? The knowledge that "you are" was not obtained by any effort on part of the entity called "you". Would you agree with what is written above? If so, then why is this "you" still seeking? Is it not because of your strong ( but false and we will see why "false" later on) belief in the independent existence of the entity called "you". This "you" that you call "me" is the belief that it is the body that is sitting in front of the computer right now. You are very certain that this body is what you call a "me". Let us look at the definition of the word "belief". Belief is defined in the dictionary ( and not by this writer) as " confidence in the existence of something not immediately susceptible to rigorous proof".
Now, where exactly or what is the locus (a center or source, as of activities or power- dictionary meaning of locus) of this entity called "me" in the body? Is it in the hands or feet, or is it in the heart or in the stomach or in the brain? Can you find an exact location for this "me"? OK, you say it is in the brain- frequent answer, right? If so, when the brain is in deep sleep mode and there is no"me" (or for that matter no world or any other object) does the heart stop beating or the digestion stop or the other functions of the body halt? OK, alright, let us look at the example of the wakeful state. You say the entity "me" is in the brain (your head!), then can this "me" stop the food once it is beyond the palate and in the throat? Can the "me" say "let me stop the process of digestion since I dislike this digestive process" and actually stop it? Can the "me' stop the formation of urine by the kidneys? Can the "me" decide on which cells the skin must shed today? So on and so forth. The answer is obvious. There is no locus for the "me" anywhere in the body in particular. If so, you would have found it on your own investigation (not based on any belief system or what is written here).
The body itself is formed from a sperm and ovum. The sperm and the ovum are formed from the essence of the food consumed by the parents. The life essence or prana or chi (call it what you like) is present in the sperm and the ovum. Who gives the orders to a particular sperm to make its way up to the uterus? Mind you, there are millions of sperms and only one makes it and that too not everytime there is conjugal love.
This sperm and ovum, then multiply and divide into specialized organ systems, all without the entity called "me" being there. In fact, the original sperm and ovum are no longer even existing in this body that you call "me" sitting in front of the computer and reading this message. In fact, every single moment millions of cells in the body are dying and being replaced by new ones. The body is constantly changing and if indeed you were the body, then you are constantly dying and being born again and again every moment!! But, that is not what you THINK this "me" is. You think the "me" dies only when the body as a whole dies. But, you now cannot deny the fact that the body is constantly changing (dying and recreated every moment). Correct? The "me" is just an imagination, an entity in the mind, a picture in the mind. It has no reality whatsoever.
Can this thought of a "me" even come up without the life force or consciousness at this very moment? The idea ( and that is all that the "me" is, just an idea, a thought) of a "me" cannot exist independent of the consciousness (or awareness, if you like). As noted above the "me" has no substance whatsoever!
After investigation as above, is it not fair to say that the whole idea of a "me" wanting to "attain" this enlightenment or nirvana or moksha(liberation) or gaining knowledge of the Awareness or Brahman, is but a figment of the imagination? A figment of the imagination of the "me", which in itself is an imaginary entity, with no independent nature or substance whatsoever apart from the Awareness (intelligence energy, life force, Brahman or whatever else you like to call THAT).
Rest in the awareness that you already are. You cannot be anything else (even if you don't like it!!). All there is, IS AWARENESS. You cannot say " I am NOT aware", "I do NOT exist" with certainty.
