Once, it is seen that there is awareness always present, without any effort on your part, the next question is who is it that is seeking? If awareness is self-shining, ever fresh and present, and the thoughts including the "I-thought" are occurring because of the presence of awareness ( or call it awareness of presence), then it becomes clear that all that is occurring is a content of the Awareness. The seeker is an imaginary entity called "me", which we have not been able to pinpoint or locate so far on investigation. This imaginary entity called "me", wants to find or hopes to find the Awareness one fine day, ignoring the fact that Awareness is already here and present and no effort had to be made even by the "me" to cause it. Stop right here. There is awareness present right here and right now. Or else, how could reading and writing be taking place? Stop, pretending to be an entity "me". Realize, right here and now that apart from Awareness, nothing ever is. Abide as the Awareness.
Now, the next question arising in the mind is what is this awareness? How come I still don't get it? Please understand that the answer is not in the mind. The mind cannot describe what it is itself a content of!! An analogy would be, can the eye see itself. Point a finger towards your face and on present evidence can you see your face? Not based on memory, but on present evidence, you cannot see your face or the eyes. In the same way, this Awareness cannot be described just like space cannot be described. What is space? Well, space is space, right?!! So, this Awareness is space like, indescribable yet undeniable as you are currently aware of being aware and alive. When there is a "me"(I-thought), there is Awareness. When the "me" or (I-thought) is absent on investigation, there still is the Awareness. Awareness is not affected by the thoughts and feelings, it remains always ever fresh and self-shining. No questions are asked by Awareness. Irrespective of the thoughts, emotions, feelings, actions, Awareness remains untouched. You are That Awareness. It is here and now, present as always. Stop being ignorant ( which does not mean you are stupid)- stop ignoring, what is obvious and present right here and right now. Now, what effort did any entity make to be aware? Can anything be added to Awareness to make it better? Can anything be removed from Awareness? Is it not already full and complete? Will 10 years of spiritual search or meditation or other spiritual endeavours by an imaginary entity called a "me', in any way change the fact that he/she is aware and present then as he/she was present now? One thing that has not changed throughout the many years of "your life" is the fact that awareness/presence has been there throughout, UNCHANGED!! What changes is not Real.
The imaginary seeker thinks that by doing something or some action, there will be something better than the present moment. He/she has this feeling that the current status is somehow not good enough because the mind is constantly pursuing pleasure in the world of objects. All pursuits in the world of objects are transient and as soon as the pleasure is over, the mind starts the search all over again. This continues all through one's life resulting in suffering as the mind makes one believe that the present is not good enough. Even, objects that once gave a lot of pleasure fail to please after some time. The mind says "bored" or "not good enough anymore" and the seeking for the next pleasure continues. In fact, spiritual seeking is not any different. It is the mind wanting a permanent happiness. How can a mind, which is itself constantly changing, find permanent happiness? Is that not an oxymoron? Therefore, permanent happiness or peace can be only beyond the mind. Perhaps, one has read about enlightened persons who walk as if on a cloud, all hazy and mystical. This thinking that what is present is somehow not good enough, is the cause of seeking for something better in the future. This seeking for something better results in constant suffering. Because one is not realizing the fact that presently, here and now, you ( Awareness) are already full and complete. So, stop imagining to be an entity with a name and form, and abide as the Awareness. The seeking can only stop when the seeker is unveiled to be a false, imaginary, concept. The seeker falls away exposing the ever present, ever shining, clear, obvious Awareness. And that can happen right now, if only one is willing to investigate with sincerity and wanting nothing in return. Just investigate for the sake of investigation.
