Just Focus Your Attention on the "I"

When it comes to the spiritual practice of Self Inquiry, it is actually very simple.  However, because it is approached improperly, it seems complicated or even impossible. Let us look at this issue in some detail.

When a seeker first comes to the topic of Non-duality or Advaita, he or she (going forwards for sake of ease of writing, only the pronoun "he" shall be used although it encompasses all) approaches it like any other objective knowledge.  He takes for granted that he is an entity -  the idea that "I am a body made up of flesh and bones" - who is going to study and attain knowledge about the non-dual Reality just like he would any other objective knowledge. While initially this approach is perfectly alright, eventually difficulty will be encountered. By this approach, only an inferential knowledge can be gained. Meaning thereby, one can understand some of the basic principles about the Unreal and the Real. However,  Knowledge about the Ultimate Reality will not be obtained by this method. 

As long as one does inquiry of the Self maintaining a separate and independent idea or conviction of being a body-mind entity, there is no hope of realizing the Self. The Self is not some thing that is to be attained. Such an approach will only lead one down a rabbit hole of innumerable concepts about the nature of the Self, all of which would be false since they are just concepts.  The non-conceptual Self cannot be known in the form of concepts!

In Self Inquiry, the most important investigation is actually to find out if and where the "I" exists.  Yes, this "I' is the same "I am the body with a mind" entity we are talking about - i.e. you, the reader.  Let us see, right here and now, if there is actually an entity that is reading this passage. In this case, the passage is the object of the vision and there is apparently an entity calling himself the "reader' of this passage (the subject). To keep things simple, the passage appears as an image on the retina of the eye thereby triggering electrical impulses. The electrical impulses travel via the Optic Nerve and reach the portion of the brain called the Visual Cortex. So far, so good.  But, is there really some entity or someone who is analyzing the electrical information? Look carefully to see if there is really an entity, an occupant in the solid mass of tissue called the brain, who is looking out through the windows called the eyes and then declaring " I am seeing". Or, as is obvious on careful analysis, what is obviously a mass of water and other elements (constituting the brain) is incapable of actually "seeing" or even "analyzing" the information received at the visual cortex.  So, who is this "I" that is apparently reading or analyzing the information and where is the location for this "I"? The same investigation can be done for other actions or sensations that are perceived by the body.  Further, the same investigation can be done asking - who is the "feeler" or the "thinker"?

So, it becomes clear from the inquiry, that there is a mysterious entity called "I"- an owner occupant-  that takes ownership of the body and all its actions and also ownership of the thoughts and feelings.  One must investigate, who exactly is this "I" who has appeared in the waking and the dream states to take ownership of the body and mind? However, this "I", along with the world of objects seems to somehow disappear or subside in deep dreamless sleep. Yet, when one wakes up from sleep, one usually has memory of having slept as is obvious, when upon waking, one states - " I slept happily".  It is obvious that there is some other non-entity that is aware of the three states of wakefulness, dream and deep sleep and yet is unaffected by all these states. That which is beyond these three states is referred to as the "Turiya" (literally meaning the fourth). However, it is not a state since the other three states appear in it. To avoid going down the rabbit hole, let us get back to you - the "I" - the doer, the reader, the thinker, the feeler, the perceiver, the sufferer, the enjoyer etc.

There are many other investigative methods mentioned in the Advaitic literature and shastras. Regardless of which method you use, the focus of attention should always be on this " I am the body" idea. Where did the idea or thought "I am the body" arise from? What is the source? Is the "I" an entity or is it just a thought?  What are thoughts? Is there any such thing called the "mind"? Or is the mind just thoughts and nothing else? Hang on to the "I -thought" once you have established that it is just a thought. Is it not true that all other thoughts are anchored to this "I- thought"? Can other thoughts exist in the absence of the "I-thought"? Do you exist in the absence of thoughts? 

Knowing the Self is being the Self. When the idea of individuality disappears, the Self which is always self shining and always here and now becomes self evident. No one has to go searching for the Sun using a lamp! Eventually, you will realize that the entire exercise of self inquiry is being played out in the mind, which in itself has no existence apart from the Self. It is ONLY when the mind finally becomes STILL, that the Pure Awareness shines through. The way to stillness is to inquire who is this "I" and the "I" disappears like a ghost or phantom - as it no longer has any object or form to hold on to. Stillness is beingness. 

The Sounds of Silence- Part 2

How does one ever understand what the sages were trying to convey in their description of the Absolute as Silence or Stillness? Well, there is a way. The way to go about is to renounce or discard every concept that the mind tries to bring up in description of the Truth. Whenever we communicate, including here, we have to use words or sounds to do so. But what exactly are words? They are just ways for the mind to create a concept or imagination or image. For instance, if someone says 'computer', the person hearing it immediately conceptualizes a 'box with a screen showing images and a keyboard attached to it'. But the word itself is nothing but a sound or an image on paper. Without this ability to conceptualize, it is impossible for communication to occur between people. All communication is at the level of the mind. All words and sounds are in duality.


In asking the student to merge into Silence, the Sages gave an easy solution to finding the Truth. They have asked the seeker or the student to give up or negate all concepts or imaginations. In fact, the sages were speaking from their own experience of  Nirvikalpa samadhi.  In the state of nirvikalpa there is absolutely no concept and yet it is still a state of the mind and therefore limited in time. In this state of the mind, there is utter stillness or silence. Silence means absence of concepts or absence of any mental modifications or vritti (vritti-activity of forming concepts in the mind). 'Nir' means 'no or without' and 'kalpa' means 'aeon or a long period of time'. We know that time is a concept of the mind and there can be no creation without time.  Vikalpa is impression of thought or concept. Therefore, Nirvikalpa is the absence of thought, absence of time and concepts; a state where there  is no thought, no movement in consciousness or awareness of any concepts or images. But as soon as we describe this state, we begin to conceptualize and imagine this state and immediately move away from what is being pointed to. All concepts are a result of movements in consciousness. So, when the student returned to the Sage to ask if this state of nirvikalpa samadhi is the Truth, the Sage replied "neti"- meaning 'not this'. The Sage was asking the student to renounce or discard even this experience and what is left over is Blank- indescribable but intuitively understood as That which is prior to or beyond all concepts including the conceptual experience of nirvikalpa.

But, the student was not able to grasp this abstract answer given by the Sage. The Sage then had to tell the student that it is through Knowledge of Discrimination (viveka) that the mind can finally get the intuitive understanding of the Truth. This is called intuitive understanding (or Understanding as this author likes to call it- with a capital U) by careful use of the Knowledge of Discrimination. For the majority of seekers of Truth who are likely mired in the endless concepts created by the mind, the discrimination between the false and the Truth is the way to empty the mind of all the useless concepts one by one. In this endeavor, complete faith in the words of the Guru or the Sage is vital. The words of the Guru are the way to the Truth.  For many a student, the way to Silence is through the sound or words of the Guru. When one hangs on to the words of the Guru with complete unconditional faith, there is utter Stillness and Silence for one merges with the Guru. In hanging on to the words of the Guru, one loses his/her identity and merges into the Silence, the very Silence from which all the sounds of the Sadguru emerge.

The Sounds of Silence- Part 1

Your True Nature is Silence, Stillness, Unmoving, and Solid. Is it not amazing that so much has been written, discussed, talked about in so many languages about a simple subject of silence. How can words and sounds describe silence? It is almost as absurd as someone shouting to describe or emphasize silence!  The words and sounds try to carve an image of silence. But is it really possible? Silence by itself indicates the absence of sound. And yet all sounds must emerge from silence. For if there is no sound, there is silence and the interval between sounds is silence. Therefore, the best way to describe silence is to remain silent. The author's Guru, Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi was best known for this particular method of teaching about the Truth and even those who were in His presence were silenced spontaneously. There is no better way to convey the Truth than mouna (silence).

That brings us to the question of why the ancient Rishis and Sages describe the Absolute as also Silence or Stillness. They figured that if they try to describe the Absolute with any word or sound then it would not be true. Any one who has "experienced" the Truth knows fully well that there is no way to describe It.  Therefore, the only way to point a seeker of Truth in the right direction would be emphasize the absence of any sound or movement and one way to communicate the same in words is to describe it as Silence or Stillness. In fact, the production of sound is in itself a creation of duality. In the non-dual Truth, there is but nothing, just this indescribable Stillness or Silence. Yet, all creation is arising out of this Stillness or Silence. It is indeed Silence which is full of sound. It is indeed Stillness which is full of movement. Sound and movement are in consciousness but the Truth is beyond or prior to consciousness.

So, how is one to understand what the Sages were trying to convey? For this we will go to part 2 of this topic.